the new shanghai nights

Cold

I feel like I'm at the lowest point of my life.

Possibly and very likely.

I need to get through this phase of life as soon as possible.

Dwelling won't help.

Getting back to where I was won't help either.

I need to make decisions.

Stand firm and be rooted to my choices.

Understand the consequences of reliance.

Stop finding excuses for myself.

No one too significant. No one too important.

It's time to choose.

Time to find joy from within.

Time to love all and not one.

Time to forgive and forget.

Time for a new reason.

Time to focus.

Time to read.

Time to be.

Time to ...

No one is keen in your story.

They don't care less if you drop a teeth.

If you had a bad tummy, a bad day.

Only if your bad makes them bad. Like your stinky bad breathe.

Yes, no one really cares.

So die if you want, cos theirs will just go on.

With or without you.

Nothing is less exciting without you.

Are you surprised?

Cos I was too.

Life was like the biggest thing.

Until you meet the rest of the world.

No, you're nothing.

Don't bother telling anyone your worries, your sadness, your joy.

Nothing good comes out.

Nothing comforting.

It's not worth the time. You're just being too weak.

There's no need for accountability.

No need for you.

No need to tell me.

Everything is free.

I can just go missing.

As long as you are free.

I can just go missing.

What has become of me?

The top 5 things that will ANNOY ME

Look, it's not easy to be nice and friendly all the time.

I try to be. You know they call it - being politically correct.

Seriously, whatever.

I am a sensitive person. I would think about how you would feel before I make any comments or statements. I know how it feels to receive nasty comments, I know how blatant remarks can ruin your week. Thus I hold them back.

That doesn't mean I am OKAY with it.

I have decided. I need to have an edge over situations like that.

I will be a bitch to those who seeks one.

Like the bible says... "Ask and you will receive, seek and you will find"

If I bite you, you must have asked for it.

Now, I shall share the TOP 5 things that annoys me inside out:

1. LACK OF PLANS

I need and want to know what's next. What's your plan? What's your thought? What you have in mind? I HATE working in environment where no one knows what's going on and the person in charge is still confused. If thats the case, let me do your job. I cannot live a day without knowing what's going to happen the following evening.

2. BETRAYAL OF MY TRUST

I will trust you until you choose to give it away to your own selfish means.

i. GOING BACK ON YOUR WORDS

Say what you mean and mean what you say. Be a man/woman of your words. Don't be a coward.

ii. DON'T DO WHAT YOU DON'T LIKE AND COMPLAIN LATER

If you don't want to, just say it. We can work things out. Don't help/do/commit and regret later. You end up being a jerk.

3. HANGING UP ON MY CALL

If you can hang up on my call, you simply don't respect our friendship.

4. INSINCERITY

If you don't mean it, don't do it. It doesn't make a difference to me.

5. SELFISHNESS

If you are too concerned about yourself, your money, your everything. Forget it.

I won't mind sharing anything with you. It will disgust me when anyone close to me get particular and anal over small amount of money etc. If I bought you something, take it. Throw away later when I don't see. Don't insist on paying. And don't get nasty with me over $2.50. I will seriously throw the money on your face and tell you how lousy a person you are. It is unless you are poor, or having no cash at the moment. If you are just being selfish and wants to draw lines with me. I will use a marker to cross you out.

You don't need me, you need yourself.

Look, I don't care what rank you hold. I don't care how smart you think you may be.

I don't care how you wear, what you look like.

I love my friends. And I appreciate them for the things and time they spend with me.

I don't like the feeling of being unsettled, I like to know where I am heading.

I don't exactly need an answer/solution. I just need to know if there is a formula.

If you don't have it, tell me, I will come up with a formula myself. Don't just keep mum and pretend you are smart. And don't accuse me of initiating it when I try. At least I tried and you didn't.

I once cared too much, I made myself a fool.

If you are an ass, go find yourself a toilet bowl. Shit you very much.

I hate the 5 things I mentioned above. I don't just say it for the sake of doing so, I make sure that I don't do it to you as well.

Shanghai Nights

Heng Shan Road 525, The Art Gallery Suite

That's where I stayed. An atas district with a heavy scent of French loaves and accent.

The trees were bald. The wind was blowing hard.

15 degrees. It was like France, really.

@ the subway: Apart from the occasional rudeness and barbaric behavior from the fellow Shanghainese, it looks like Japan actually. Maybe, dirtier (cos they eat on the train) and noisy (cos they speak out loud inconsiderately) and packer (they just squeeze you freshly). That's the difference between China and Japan maybe. It was a little of a culture shock cos I was pulled aside, literally PULLED aside to make way for an alighting passenger.

First time in winter wear. I know right. Cam whore. but yes, I love the feeling of having a scarf over my neck. It's an odd feeling cos you are Hot and Cold at the same time. The word is; warm. Nice.

Shopping never been more fun. It's cheap, that's why.

I flew China Eastern Airlines.

Not the best but it was a good flight.